On a few levels.
Loss of my mom.
Loss of sleep.
Loss of [manageable] time.
Loss of understanding why coworkers are not upfront about not having your work when you were on bereavement leave (and it takes an incident for that truth to come out).
At a loss knowing what to post about.
At a loss trying to figure out how to get back on top of things.
At a loss pondering the state of the world, politics, and human nature.
At a loss . . . wondering if spring will ever arrive or if, in July, we’ll simply slide into summer. 😉
I’m sure all will fall into place again at some point. Speaking of “fall” though, right now, it feels like I’m hanging in a wishing well by my fingertips, struggling not to drop into the groundwater . . . or whatever else may be waiting below.
Here’s to wishing—to be embraced by the straight and narrow, the norm, the predictable, the routine . . . and welcoming the loss of loss.
I'm primarily a writer of fiction and blog posts, and a sometimes editor and proofreader of books, manuals, and film/television scripts. Fact-checking and researching, organizing and coordinating are skills and joys (I enjoy playing detective and developing structure). My fiction audience: lovers of female-sleuth mysteries. My genres of preference: mysteries (needless to say), women’s fiction, informative and helpful “affirmative” non-fiction.
So-o, here I am, staring up a new blog for aspiring and established e-Book writers. The plan: to share the (long) journey of getting to this stage, and share "learnings" and "teachings". There's a lot I hope to accomplish with this blog, but it may be a while before that happens as there's a lot on the ol' plate - taking care of Mom, working full-time, and attempting to get another book in the Triple Threat Investigation Agency series written (never mind blog postings and other writing projects).
It's very challenging and it's all good. As I like to say: teeny focused baby steps are just as effective as long forceful strides. It may take a little longer, but we will get there.
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It might take a bit of time, but you’ll be on a much better course soon.
We just had a loss in my family too. When I get in moods like this, where I don’t feel like blogging, but I don’t want to lag behind. I post beautiful pictures, no message needed. Maybe a sentence or two. That keeps your Blog running and gives you time to heal. I’m sorry for your loss.
Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that. My heartfelt condolences. … That’s a lovely idea: posting beautiful pictures. I will keep that in mind. All the best and God bless. xox
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Yes, it’s hard, but my Italian mother always taught us kids, we’re in charge of our brains, so every morning and during the day if our mind goes to sad thoughts, we NEED to turn it around. Look at a beautiful picture, see a funny youtube video (Jim Gaffigan is funny), play good music, my mother always played Opera, or listened to an audio book that distracts the mind, go on a walk listen to music hear the birds chirp. I read recently that when someone passes, they are ONE person, they are now in a good place at peace with whatever ailments they might have had, so it’s not nice for us who are left, where we are more than one person having sad and gloomy thoughts, because the soul of the other person who passed needs us to give them a HAPPY send off. What a thought right?! It changed my perspective on things. It’s true, that poor soul cannot leave if they feel guilty that they caused us such pain and suffering.
That is wonderful (and sage) advice. She sounds like a wise and kind woman. Being sad has its merit and moment, but we should look at the brighter, more positive side of things. I find walking is always good, particularly in the local cemetery, where it’s peaceful, birds and wildlife abound; it’s very . . . soothing. Take care, my friend.