We all have one—personal, professional, life-changing, funny, sad, and/or <insert adjective of preference>.
Given I’m a writer and blogger, it seemed appropriate to share mine. But which one? . . . Well, why not two or three: personal, professional, and faith-bound [adjective of preference].
♦ Personal ♦
As I grow older and [finally] mature <LOL> I view life and events from different perspectives.
Some of us have wonderful parents, others have tolerable/fair ones, and a few have ones we wish could be returned to the Customer Service desk. I grew up with alcoholic parents. Mom was nasty, Dad quiet (save for glassy eyes, you could never tell he’d been “imbibing”). I didn’t like my mother much and she—gauging by the attitude and comments—didn’t much care for me. Childhood and adolescence consisted of humungous tummy knots and treading on eggshells. Imagination was my BFF.
The final chapter of this personal story is that I eventually realized my father did love me in his unique, undeclared way. His own life events (including internment) had shaped him and he did the best he could considering the circumstances. Mom had made unwise choices and blamed the world—and me—for them. Maybe it wasn’t the right thing to do (blame someone else) but decades later I finally understood the reasons behind those choices. I forgive her. I even love her (she is my mother, after all) and I’ll continue to take care of her during these twilight years.
♦ Professional ♦
I’d wanted to be a writer since Mr. Kennedy complimented something I’d written in Grade 7 English class. My childhood BFF, Imagination, had already nudged me into composing comics and chronicles. Later, they evolved into books. Confession: I wasn’t good. At all. Joining writers’ groups and taking classes provided guidance, and while I absorbed all I could, I didn’t necessarily apply it.
Serving as ESL and SE teacher/trainer, and technical editor, didn’t help in the creative writing front. It was only when I heard instead of listened, read other writers (by the truckloads) and sat back with a truly critical eye that it all started falling, slowly but surely, into place. That true “a-ha(!) moment” arrived after what seemed a short lifetime.
The final professional chapter will be written the day I finally lay down the four-ink pen and leave the keyboard behind.
Life—and work—is all about learning and growing, realizing and applying. It’s all so very good. Tricky and testing, but very good.
♦ Faith-bound ♦
Maintaining faith has been a struggle. Although I sincerely believe in the Big Guy, his Son, and the Good Book, I—like many—frequently ask “why?” “Why me?” “Why this?” “Why can’t I get a break?” “Why . . . why . . . why?” <LOL> Maybe it’s easier to view ourselves as victims, to place the blame elsewhere. Accepting responsibility and/or taking action can prove daunting.
We’re given challenges for various reasons. In my case, I honestly believe He wants me to learn forgiveness and patience. The forgiveness I believe I’ve acquired, the patience—hell no. Oops. Heck no. I truly am my father’s daughter: he possessed none, either.
The last chapter in this story is that I will master patience. It will continue to be a struggle, unquestionably, but it will happen. My faith will grow and stabilize . . . and I’ll be a better person for it.
There you have it. Three short-and-sweet stories that have shaped me and/or will continue to do so. It feels good to purge, to wear the ol’ heart on the sleeve, to be honest and open.
The next three posts—more stories—will be authored by the trio from the Triple Threat Investigation Agency. (Rey’s already pumped up.)
And what about you? What’s your story?